What if...??

There won't be any person I guess who at any point in life stood at a point which lead him to two paths*, and both gave some kind of hope, a wish, may be a promise for the changing future - future changing for the better;  followed by a huge Dilemma - What if...? 

It's like - a devil's been chasing you (that's the present situation) and you are running away from it, you run with all the strength in you, the devil is picking up speed and closing in on you... you strive for your life, you pray for more strength, you can't fight it as you obviously see that its more powerful than you, you wish for some kind of miracle to happen, you wish either it disappears magically or you become invisible... you enter a chaotic jungle, which is a new ground for you, you don't know where the next turn will lead you to... in so much chase you start losing your breath, your strength, your will & with it - your hope... but there is a belief somewhere in you which still pushes you to carry on... still fight against it... so you focus on the future, forgetting what's behind you... you start looking forward... for any escapes where you can lose the big bad demon and build something new... so with regained spirit you start looking out for more... and there comes a  point where there are two paths for you to take where you can change the situation for the better. Now, in that split second, you gotta decide which one you ought to be on. And in this split second, you can do 2 things to choose the path; one, on the basis of your past experiences or second, go by your gut feeling... and once you are almost 99% sure about the path you need to take on - then comes the question - What IF...?? 

You can fill in all the What IF questions yourself, but the doubt, the hitch that to take that step ahead remains... there is anxiety which what will happen ahead... you are hanging between hope and fear... and then you say Chuck It.. you relinquish all your fears and take on a path (most likely with your gut...)... and there you find a place where you can camp for a little while and make a base for the future lying ahead...    

Well, this is quite an optimistic ending... but i guess thats what generally happens if an honest effort is put in... because sometimes people are not even honest with their own selves and not put in a whole hearted effort to save their own selves from the situations that they are in... 

To our Beliefs, Hopes, Strength & Will... Cheers...!!!

* Source of the Data: Asti & Asti only. 

Ek Naukri Ka Sawaal Hai Baba...

Really... tell me how many of you relate to this... agar ye naukri nahi hoti to saari pareshaniyan, dukh, dard, pratdnayein, chintayein hi khatm ho jaati... nahi.?? par haan usi k saath saath saari tamannayein, vilasitayein, khushiyan bhi... hmm... which means naukri ek aisa laddoo hai jise khaya bhi na jaaye or chhoda bhi na jaaye... errrr... i think this simile is generally used in some other perspective... :) hehe... thoda mix up ho gaya... i think i should start over... Better would be to say naukri ek aisa puppy hai, jo shuruaat mein jab milta hai to bas man ko bha jata hai or usey kabhi na chhodne ka man karta hai, its so perfect that you never actually want to leave it alone... but then give it sometime then you start realizing that how much you need to take care of it... how much time you need to spend with it... you ll have to forget your preoccupations for it... it ll be hard to manage your hobbies with it around... it starts growing around you and growing on you too... achcha bahut huye ye similes... i know i can't stretch it further...

the point is, however hard that you try to like your job but in sometime you start realizing that it is not you who has the power over your job, its the other way round... its almost like the situation when u r in the back seat with that same cute little puppy in the driver's seat with no sense of what a steering wheel does, no long legs to reach to those very efficient brakes, the machine in highest gear and taking you downhill into a crevice... ufff... this is actually sounding scary once you start imagining this...

further analysis says this occurrence of the said feeling is due to some reasons (which are actually the few that i have been able to pin down) ... so those are:

• the most important one: its your JOB...: now hold on, what does this mean... of course it is my job... what else were we talking about till now... and why this has to be the reason for the same question....um.. uhh.. well... wait, wait, wait... hold those reins of your beautiful beasts of thoughts... let me finish the whole sentence... i meant "its your job and not your Work"... now do you get the difference... now is it the answer for the question in the beginning... hmmm... yep, i know, now it does explain a bit... but to further extrapolate to those who like to shred any reason to pieces... here i ll use an example, its actually very simple: your 'work' changes to a 'job' when instead of saying 'i have to do this' you start saying 'i should do this now'... Work is something you love doing and job is simply a task... so when this perspective changes, i think you know its time to add some spice to your work life and take control instead of giving in to the situation which ll drag you down to something you won't like to imagine...
• you are also losing your control when you start realizing you have nothing to do... which mainly includes your hobbies... take a grip, take out time for yourself... coz you know you are happy doing stuff all the time... do whatever you like to do... apart from sleeping i wud rather suggest... but just do it... it will surely freshen up the perspective...
• and in the end, also be thankful whatever you have been able to achieve and be thoughtful of what all you would like to achieve...

so here in the end the question that we started off with changes a bit and becomes "kya naukri ek sawaal hai...?" ya fir hum khud hi usey ek sawaal bana dete hain...?

ooooooh the deep thought... carry on guys... its all for the good...

Cheers...!!